I live through music, the words and lyrics more than often define me and what I'm going through.

My Top Six Songs (atm-in no particular order) are:

1. Get Out of This Town- Carrie Underwood
   Got it all figured out inside of my head
   There's a bag packed up at the foot of my bed
   You say the word, baby I'm all set
   We'll cover our tracks
   Tell a couple white lies
   Make sure we got a good alibi
   And by the time they catch on
   We'll be outta there sight
   Long gone baby
   
   
   
2. Not Your Cinderella- Payton Rae
   I don't know if I believe in love at first sight
   I think it might need just a little more time
   To grow and be real
   
   
   
3. Hide Your Matches - Julianne Hough
     'Cause I could spark like thin white paper wrapped tight 'round some cigarette
   And leave nothing but the smell of smoke and the bitter taste of regret
   Or I could get hot like them coals that turn the water into steam
   And fall down around you like some misty morning
   You better hide your matches boy
   
   
   
4. Reality- Kenny Chesney 
    Reality, yeah, sometimes life
   Ain't all that it's cracked up to be
   So let's take a chance and live this fantasy
   'Cause everybody needs to break free from reality
   
   
   
5. That's Where It Is- Carrie Underwood
   When we feel that rush, that's where it is
   It's a life time filled with tight embraces
   The biggest things in the smallest places
   
   
   
6. Life Is Good- Brittini Black
   

Cooking with my aunt is always a fun time. Homemade pasta and sauce. It's days like these that I love the most. Simple days.

I like cooking. Random car rides to random or even simple places. I have the most fun when I'm with my aunts. That's when I'm truly my happiest. My parents don't listen but someday they will wish they had. My favorite color is blue. I'm a scorpio. If I could go live as an Amish person for a day, week, or any period of time I would. I'm awkward. Dating is not my strong suit. I have an old soul.

"In the midst of our lives, we must find the magic that makes our souls soar."
-Unknown

Something Bigger

A movement of a pen, the stroke of a brush; these things are the start of something new. Maybe even something big. To an artist these movements and strokes could make or break a piece of art. But to those of us that are not artists they mean very little, that is until a movement or stroke changes our lives. Our movements or strokes of life just pile up on top of each other until they become something more. Maybe it's time to start paying attention to the little movements, maybe they will lead somewhere bigger. But somewhere bigger that you want them to go.

You think I would have learned by now. I wish I would have learned by now. But I haven't because for whatever reason I believe in second chances, thirds and fourths. That ends now. Because now I'm just disappointed in you. I didn't want to believe you and the words you spoke. But they were so strong and you said them like you actually meaned them. So I ignored my brain and followed my feelings. And that only left me hurt and disappointed. More in myself then in you but still, it was there. I don't understand how you can say the things you said so freely and meaninglessly. How you can keep things going that are just a charade. Was it just a game to you? See if you can get the girl even if you didn't want her but make her believe you do? I really just want answers but I know I'm not getting them. But what I do know is there won't be a fifth and you've ruined my trust in guys. So thanks for that.

Some Randoms..

My eyes tear all the time because of the change in temperature. Lists make me feel better. I hate being told that I'm just like my mother. I'm nothing like her. I have a passion for photography and love capturing moments. My name is Jess but some know me as Summer. 9x - 7i > 3(3x - 7u) means I love you in my language. I love writing whether to get my feelings out or to get lost in another world or story where everything works out in the end, not a lot of people in the field of math can say that. Nine tens out of ten I'm doubting myself. I count my lucky stars that I have had such amazing teachers in my life. One in particular, who has been there for me through thick and thin. I don't think I'd be where I am today without her. Pick-up trucks down an old back road in the middle of summer make me smile. I love french manicures. If I could live anywhere in the world it would be a toss up between New York City and Tennessee, total opposites I know. But it's who I am. My life isn't perfect, neither am I but I not sure I would trade it for anything.