When is enough....enough?

It's not my fault. That's what I keep trying to tell myself. It's not my fault that I can't get her to understand. It's not my fault that I can't get her to listen. But it hurts and it's hard. And you can't get someone to listen and take things in when she doesn't want to.

It's like situation after situation, she talks to everyone BUT me. She listens to everyone BUT me and thinks that what works for other people will work for me. There's one piece she is missing or ignoring. MS is NOT the same for everyone and not everything works for everyone. I'm so tired of trying to explain it. I want her to understand, I really do but I'm so over dealing with this. I really don't even feel like trying to get through to her anymore. I really don't even want to talk to her about it anymore. Maybe that's bad but I've tried, I've done what I could. It's going to have to be enough.

Turning Point

As I talk to others who are approaching their one year point since being diagnosed I've realized something. After I reached my one year mark everything changed. I stopped counting the days. When people ask me how long I've been diagnosed it has become a little over a year because I no longer know the exact number months like I once did. I turned a huge corner on the one year "anniversary" of my diagnosis. I know I'm no longer putting deadlines on being okay with MS. But I'm wondering if I really just needed to get through the one year mark to begin accepting and healing. Was my one year my turning point?

Day Two

Do you know what's funny? Walking into walks is kind of funny. I'm onto my second day of being dizzy..it's no fun at all.