I'm not totally upset with the fact that I most likely have MS. It's the fact that at the age of 21, I am so comfortable with the idea of having an MRI done or having to have a spinal tap. I don't get upset over these things like most people would.
Boys, they scare me. I should be familiar with boys but I'm not. Instead I'm familiar with medical tests and things of that nature. I could have written a play book on tests. But I'm so clueless when it comes to guys. I want a different normal.
My normal isn't boys and tanning like most of my friends. My normal is doctors and medical tests. I don't want that to be my life.
I'm 21 and there are so many things I would have thought I would have done by now. I thought by now I would have had at least a few boyfriends, maybe even a long term boyfriend. That's what upsets me.
It's what doesn't upset me that scares me.
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