I'm overwhelmed, really overwhelmed. I have a doctor's appointment on Tuesday and I'm not even sure I want to go but I feel like I have to. I feel like I owe this to myself. I feel like I owe it to myself not to give up.
But in doing that I think I'm hurting myself. Going through this is killing me. I have so many thoughts running through my head I can't sort them out. I'm upset and making absolutely no sense.
What do you do when what you feel you need to do, is ultimately the thing that has the most power to destroy you? But at the same time how do you not go through with this? How do you stop fighting for answers that will help you health-wise?
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