You'd see that today holds something special
Something holy, not superficial
So here's to the birthday boy who saved our lives
It's something we all try to ignore
And put a wreath up on your door
So here's something you should know that is for sure
Christmas must be something more
Merry Christmas <3.

Just be proud of me, just me and only me; not me because I'm on a billboard.

I don't want to be that girl.

They say maybe this was a good thing, that there's room for things to change now. But I've seen no change things are still the way they've always been. I can't stand it. And you obviously don't care. Nothing I do is ever going to change that. I can't wait to leave.

How do you know?

The worst feeling in the world, when someone wants you only because the one they really want doesn't want them. Then drops you because the one he really wants, wants him back.

I don't know what you want from me anymore and I'm tired of trying to figure it out. Just tell me, or don't. I just really don't understand anymore, I'm so confused. You contradict yourself so much. I just, I don't know. I'm so done. Nothing I do is going to change how you see me so why bother? You make me so mad. The constant yelling at me for anything and everything. I'm trying to block you out but it's so hard.

For the first time today, you're yelling but its not at me its at each other. You threaten to get a divorce like you have done so many times before. I try to hold in my tears but its hard. It's kinda funny how you saying that gets me so upset, as much as I can't stand you two I don't know what I would do if you split up. Normally, I would yell out to you to stop but I know you'd just yell up coming to yell at me, to mind my own business and that you didn't want to hear anything from me. I can't keep going like this but I don't know what to do, I don't think there is anything I can do. Im stuck and cornered in.

Now you're yelling at me for not wanting to go out with you as a family but I'm up to my neck in school work and even if I wasn't honestly I don't think I would want to. There you go comparing again, I've tuned out because it's just the same old thing. I'll always be the screw up, the one that can't do anything right. Nothing is going to change that.